I'm about to take my little Golden Girl kitty cat into the vet. She's an old soul, a senior in body and a kitten in spirit. She's been a little miracle that's stuck with me through real life waves, and surprised us all by how long she's chosen to stay with us. Less than a year after I adopted her, the vet delivered a diagnosis that set the expectation that she could leave any moment. And here she is, five years later, curled up on her heating pad, chillin' on her cat perch or sharing my pillow with me as we sleep face to face. She's a peaceful spirit in my life that I'm so appreciative for - beyond words!
And today, we're goin' to the vet. She's got something going on with her ears (interesting . . . I do, too). I dipped through phases of intense anxiety, worry, stress. Projecting worse case scenarios in my mind. Ya know, the frantic reach for the end game turnout before kickoff's even occurred. And then I remembered how it feels when my mom worries about me. It makes me feel inadequate, disempowered and sad that she doesn't see how great I'm really doing. So I decided to choose what I always want to see in little Vegas Sophie, which is the essence of who she really is. Sweet, loving, peaceful, kind, happy, content, funny and persistent (in a cute stubborn way like my grandma). That's the stuff we really want to remember anyway, no matter what unpleasing physical stuff goes down in front of us.
We're 1/2 hour and counting down until it's time to make a trip to the vet, and while I still feel somewhat charged, I acknowledge myself for setting a loving intention. This is going to be so smooth and easy. We'll just go with the flow. I know this vet and he's so nice. They've always taken great care of her. This is no big deal, just a little thing to take care of. I'm doing what feels right by having it looked at . . .
I've successfully soothed myself more than ever before in this specific life situation, and for that, I feel like a better cat mama, a more peaceful person and an open spirit that flows with the best in life.
lotsa love today & always sisters ~e