Some days life hits a nerve that I can't quite pinpoint. Tiny tasks feel excruciatingly agitating and I drudge through the day with a general angst. I light a candle, water the plants, half-heartedly play with the cat. Nothing works. Then I feel guilty for evading what I "should be doing." Until I give up completely and decide to say "Screw it! I'm just gonna stop feeling like I need to be doing anything and just ride this wave."
Whatever I want to do today, is what I'm gonna do today.
The time I decide to spend with myself feels good. I prove to myself that no deadline is more important than my soul. I feel brave for my solo revolution, my decision to not take life so seriously regardless of circumstances. I want to lift the definitions off my life~ what I should eat, how much I should make, what I should look like, how much I should work.
Is it possible to create a life free of obligation? In full support of magic? Void of rules? What does that look like?